A grief letter to my family and friends

So they recommend in my griefshare class that I write a letter and give it to my family and friends. Not sure if I will give it to them but I need to write one none the less. So...... Here is how I feel. I have lost all my future. All my hopes dissinagrated when Ed left this world. We were just waiting for the time to come when it was finally our time!  We could do what we wanted to do. Which would've been travel and spend time with our grandbabies. That was our favorite thing to do! You often hear about people that had to work till they die and you never want it to be you! Especially since he always worked so hard. His goal in life really was to please other people! He was my rock. He was who I went to for comfort and support. My comfort is no longer here. I'm not comfortable at home at work at church pretty much anywhere without him!  I do find comfort with my kids and family and my new griefshare friends. But I know now my only true comfort can come from the Lord. I have to put my hopes and dreams into eternity with my love, like we always planned.  We are never promised tomorrow. I took so many things for granted. I want to wake up from this nightmare and tell him I'm sorry that I spent some of my time playing my stupid game instead of talking to him. I thought he would always be here with me. If I could give you all one piece of advice it would be don't take a single day with the ones you love for granted. In an instant it can all me taken away. Im sorry things were so weird after he was gone. It was hard being around so many people that reminded me of what I no longer had. What I would never have again. It's still hard going to places that he was always with me. I want you to never ever feel it's not ok to talk about him. About how loved he was. How missed he is. It's ok to make me cry. He was a huge part of everyone's life and always will be.  If I'm quiet yes it's because I'm sad because he's not there with me. It's hard to talk about my feelings. No one can do anything at all to make me feel better but that's ok. I'm done for now. I may write more later. I'm going to try to sleep some more now.