Happy 4th!!??

Today is not a holiday for me. I know its Independence Day for America but for me it's just another day off. Another day to be sad and alone. Another day to fully understand that the man I love is no longer here and my life right now isn't anything I want it to be!  I'm so empty. So sad so alone. I'm surrounded by complete emptiness. Yes I have my kids thank God so much for that and my grandkids bring me so much Joy. They have their families. They have their own lives. I miss you so very much my love. My life without you sucks!!