Today wasn't the worst day!

I can't really bring myself to say today was a good day!?  How could I?  I lost my husband of almost 37 years. It's gonna be a very long time till I can honestly say that. I miss him so very bad. I still can't imagine going the rest of this worldly life without him!  How??  I actually started crying today at Costco. Who does that? Me that's who!  It's so very sad to go places we used to go together and know that he won't ever go there again with me!  Hearing people talk about grilling out and knowing I will never get to eat the food he cooked for me ever again.  It hurts my heart. I got back yesterday from a women's conference. It was pretty amazing I really enjoyed it.  I need to go to bed it's very late. I hope I get some good sleep tonight.  It's pretty hard to come by these days.